The heart hurts every single time people are mean to you, but you put on a mask and pretend to be extra nice, extra polite, or after the bitterness in one's heart becomes a poison; you preemptively strike and say something nasty about your own self. But alas, the masochist in you waits.... just this once someone might disagree with your harsh judgement of yourself, but they never do. 

So the question is why is it that self harm in the form of emotional damage is not the mainstay of topics. World Mental health day just passed and everyone talked about it and how important it is, but how does one get over hatred towards oneself?

I say this because I have noticed the phenomenon where self depreciating humour can easily turn into statements of self loathing. Therapists can only talk about tiny steps but in this day and age affording therapy is also something people don't talk about as well as the privilege attached to being able to afford the treatment.

So again how does one get over the chaos within oneself?